Hi friend. You're looking fabulous today.
Do you have your hot drink in hand? I have mine. I also have my mirror set up in front of me. So as I'm saying this, I'm making sure Heather hears it too.
Yikes. I need to get my highlights touched up. Maybe I'll set that mirror down.
So, I tried to use my cell phone yesterday & it wouldn't dial out, or even turn on for that matter. I hadn't charged it in days but I figured it'd still work. I mean, I know that I have to plug it in every night to ensure that it's battery is totally charged for me the next day. But I couldn't figure out why it wouldn't just work. It was completely charged a few days ago. And it frustrated me. I knew I should just go plug it in, but I had people to call, and I didn't have time to walk over and plug it in! C'mon.
Ok, ok. I know that sounds absolutely ridiculous. And I may have even lost a few readers because they thought, "My heavens. Poor girl isn't the brightest crayon in the box, is she?" But for all of you who are still following, this didn't REALLY happen. But let me explain.
During my college years, I would hear my sister and some of my friends say, "I just can't imagine going a day without being in God's Word!" They would describe to me how they could tell if they went through their day without being "filled" with His Word first. I never really understood this because by the time they had their "quiet time", I had already washed the dishes (turned the dishwasher on), ironed my clothes for the next day (threw my outfit in the dryer on the "scorch" setting) and pretended to finish my history paper. How would praying and sitting there help me?
And then, my Savior, after relentlessly pursuing me for years and loving me before I was even born, CHANGED MY LIFE. Slowly, but surely, I began to understand what my sister and friends had tried to express to me before. After experiencing uninterrupted, personal one-on-one time with God on a daily basis, sometimes multiple times a day, I just knew that I'd never be able to go a day without setting time aside to share my heart with Him. But just as sure as I was that I'd keep it up…I surely didn't. At first I thought that maybe I'd just pray while I was being "productive" around the house. And then, I'd get so sidetracked with changing the toilet paper rolls in the bathrooms and scrubbing the tub, that praying went right out the window. And my favorite laughable reasoning was, "Sure, I WANT to spend time with my Savior. But I have too much to do. Plus, I don't feel 'needy' today, so I'll just spend extra time with Him tomorrow. Won't He be happy about that." Then 24 hours later, "I'll just wait until tomorrow. I'm still doing good. I hardly cried over anything today." Another day or two goes by and I realize that I'm really…just…in a funk for some reason. In fact, I'm feeling a little overwhelmed…and empty. My faith is feeling a little shaky.
But it's written out crystal clear in Romans 10:17. It says: "So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ."
So this is where you think I'd connect those dots and say to myself, "HELLO! You know what you need. You need to plug into your life source! Easy fix. Now go do it." But instead, like a broken record, I repeat to myself, "I'm way too busy; and really, I just don't feel like it. I'm not feeling happy and I don't want to come to a perfect God when I'm not feeling happy. I'll try to perk myself up with some chocolate or something and THEN I'll spend some interrupted time with Him. Tomorrow." This is so egotistical! Why do I think it's ok to fellowship with the Lord only when I need to get something out of it? The God of the universe wants desperately to spend time with ME; listen to me pour out my heart to Him; comfort me. And He wants to talk directly to me also! John 4:23 expresses how God loves our worship and longs for fellowship with us! Umm, WOW.
Really? Are you serious, Heather? How many times did your momma drop you on your head as a baby? (Besides the 2 times she's apologized COUNTLESS times for.)
God-is-our-source-of-life. He is our joy giver, grace giver, abundant life giver. Without staying plugged into that source, we cannot and will not live each day to the fullest. We need to get over ourselves and realize that we are not self sufficient and can not navigate our lives without Him. And praise God that we don't have to! I declare Him faithful!
About Me

- Heather
- Every aspect of my life has been changed by Christ. His free gift of salvation has saved me. My heart, once empty, is now overflowing with true joy and beats with passion for my Savior.
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