I love that the Lord meets me where I’m at in life, dont you? It’s
incredible that the God of the universe will walk along side me during
this journey of growth, healing & restoration. I’m in awe of how quickly and
powerfully He has entered into the areas of my life and heart that I knew had been closed off and were
desperate for His presence. I’m ashamed to admit that I was expecting to have to
convince Him to consume and heal those places. But nope. The moment I gave up
control and invited Him in, He took over. Just as it should be.
I feel like a big ole’ stinky onion whose layers are being
pulled back. One after another after another. I’m recognizing Jesus more. This
is extremely exciting and scary and wonderful all at the same time. I’m excited
because the more I see, the more I fall in love with Him. It’s scary because my
flesh is always reminding me that I’m not perfect. It’s wonderful because He’s
telling me I don’t have to be.
As the Lord is revealing people and things in my life, I am
trying to address them one at a time. I’ve been encouraged. And e x t r e m e l y convicted.
I wholeheartedly believe that the Holy Spirit is impressing
upon me an urgency to share Jesus through my words. Not just my actions. I
know that there is a balance to be struck between talking about Jesus and
living my life in such a way that He is seen through it. I don’t want to do
more of one than the other. Honestly, I think that living differently is
sometimes the easier of the two. I do my thing, you do your thing. Hopefully
you see the difference in me. Hopefully YOU will approach ME. That means you’re
willing to hear about Jesus. But the idea of ME approaching YOU, definitely takes me
outside my comfort zone. There’s something about being…so…direct…that makes me
hesitate. I don’t want to step on someone’s toes or overstep my boundaries. I
don’t want to come across as judging. But I also don’t want to sugar-coat the
Truth.
I'm ashamed to admit all of that. But I'm being honest.
Well, this is what it boils down to.
There is no time left to dance around the truth. It's not my job to convince, convict or convert anybody. It is my job however, to share the Truth that I know, have experienced and have been changed by. I’m
standing in a place of love. And if I love the people around me, I will share
Jesus with them. A new love is developing inside of me and I can’t push it
aside.
I hope the truth about Jesus is received well. But I’m ok if
it’s not. I love the people in my life too much not to say anything. And I’m
starting to think a lot less of myself and how I will look. I don’t matter.
Jesus does. My life will be over in the blink of an eye. But life after death,
whether in heaven or hell, will last an eternity.
So where’s my priority?
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life.
No one comes to the Father except through me.” John 14:6
My Lord is good. He is love. He is the Truth. And I declare my God as faithful!
